
I've always been a very reserved person; I always tend to keep my personal life to me only; not even my parents, closest friends or boyfriend (when there's been one, which is rare) get the scoop. I always manage to keep things to myself.
Is this good? Is this bad?... I really don't know.. the way I see it is that, I don't want to bore or worry anyone else with the crazy stuff I have going on inside my head; I don't think they deserve to hear me wine about things, hear my anger explosions, the occasional tears, etc... It's my private life, my feelings, mine only... why should anyone else care.. right?
Although, it worries me that people think of me as cold and lonely because of this; and the truth is I am cold and lonely, but I'm not sad about this, I enjoy time with myself, I do try to keep things to myself and I do like to be alone, I never answer the phone 'cause I don't like to be disturbed when I'm working, I've even been alone in my house for days without any communication with anyone at all.
I get so anxious and grumpy with noise and other people disturbing me, that I really need the space and silence and alone time once in a while.
By all this I don't want you to think I don't care about anyone, I do, I do love to help my family and friends, I care for them, worry about them and hear them when they're sad, angry or happy; but when it comes to me, sharing my feelings... I fail. I can't seem to bring down those walls I've been building my whole life.





















