How many years can one live with a broken heart?
one, two, three?...five?... maybe only a few months?
I've been like this for quite a while...
it's been a very tough battle to fight,
and I've managed to hold on... but not for long..
I don't think I'm strong enough anymore..
I've been on the edge several times before;
I've been really close to putting an end to it, but not by winning,
but by waving out my white flag...by surrendering... accepting defeat...
Each morning I wake up,
the first thought that always comes to my mind is,
"will today be my last day?",
"is today the day when I'll finally lose my mind and pull the plug?"...
I don't know how much more of this I can take,
I don't know how long my broken heart will keep baring the pain,
but I think the end is near,
I can smell it and almost taste it...
I even dare say I can see it from afar...
I know this is it,
this is the last year I have..
these are my last days...