I've been inside all day since my morning yoga practice ended because the rain had been pouring until a couple of hours ago; so of course, I went to the beach.
If you've read my latest posts, you probably know that I'm no longer feeling like I want to be here; I'm always sad about my love life, depressed about not knowing who I am or what I want to be; basically I just don't know what the fuck I'm gonna do with my life.
I went outside with the intention to think.
Think about what I want, what I need, what I dream of... but most importantly, to meditate about the idea of leaving beautiful Playa del Carmen.
As I walked from "Shangri-la" beach to "Mamitas"; I found a sand sculpture. There was no one around; I don't know who did it and I've never ever encountered anything like this in the 2 years I've been living here.
I found a mermaid made of sand, holding super tight to the land. I can almost see her with eyes closed, even some tears. I stared at it for 5 minutes; I felt something.
I'm obsessed with mermaids, I "consider" myself one; I know, it's silly, but I do, I have been super connected to this mythological creature my entire life. My friends call me "sirena" (which means mermaid), and I draw them all the time, and well.... all that jazz... I dig them. So of course, I felt that this sand sculpture was meant for me to see.
Is it a sign?
Is she holding so tight to the land because she doesn't want to let go?
I think I found my answer.
I think I need to stay here a bit longer... for some reason, I just felt it all over my body; I have to stay. Something's coming, something's going to happen here if I stay... she's telling me to hold on, to be patient, to wait... here.
Mon ika from You Get The Picture blog, suggested my next Starbucks doodle was something space-related: galactic, stars and the moon and planets... a cosmic girl, perhaps.. well, I drew the little moon girl.